Long time no blog.
Too much interior fuckery. Self-fulfilling prophecies. I don't do anything, I feel inadequate, I don't do anything.
My own brain is just not wanting me around. All it wants to do is keep sending me evidence of my badness.
I'm not interested in much. I feel like I'm pretending to be human. But I don't know the rules. I am lost in fog of my own design.
What an ongoing waste of Air and water and space.im just wrong.
heart day
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i was in the greeting card section of the store looking for valentines, and
a man and woman came up and stood, one on each side of me, and started
going th...
4 years ago
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Oh Kelly. My heart is breaking for you. I feel and can so relate to the pain in your words. The universe moved me to google your name tonight … so happy to see activity in your blog. But of course so sad for the depth of despair in your words.
ReplyDeleteI know you feel what you feel and that is your reality right now and it all feels so accurate and true … and I have said very similar things to myself many times … but I will say unequivocally that I will never believe those things about you. You have value … you have worth … you are so special in my eyes … You are beautiful … I will never forget the connection that we had and I still feel close to you through our shared pain and experiences.
I would love to connect and offer whatever support I can but also recognize that our history may make that too difficult and be too triggering.
Either way I send you healing hugs and hope for a better tomorrow.
Connect if you can.
Post was from Kim DeLisle … showing up as Unknown but that is not what I meant to do.
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