this vile skin that has encased me, holds me captive, relentless, panoptic, vicious, tireless eater of my soul. wants me gone, wants me dead. it's exhausting fighting this invisible opponent, exhausting fighting myself.
so very tired. feeling so bad.
nothing peaks my interest, my laughter is so sparse.
brutal, slow, tiny little bites like those little chicken dinosaurs.
people try and help and i do appreciate that they care, or at least i try to. but there doesn't seem to be any lift, any break, any amelioration.
more big words that don't quite capture the dread and despair that are my constant companions.
late winter snow - just as roads and pathways were *finally* clear of snow and ice, just as i changed from heavy gloves to leather dress ones, just as i was able to wear sho...
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