Trying not to Recede

i feel shitty

my memory is untrustworthy and I just finished arguing with someone I love about something I thought I was 100% right about - nope, wasn't, not even close.

Fuck.

Now recriminations and this sick feeling - once again I have hurt another person and I just keep doing it.

Trying to grow, not recede.  A human hairline.

Trying to have faith that kindness and love will eventually win out. Wishing I was more of both.

Yet here I am, making things, trying.

Let us all try.